Blue Monkey

Monday, August 28, 2006

how madonna cued me

so its been a while since ive been trying to tell my bro im gay..i mean my sister and my mom(who by the way asked me how my loev life is, great improvement)...
my bro visits every year..last year my sister did and i pushed back the moment to tell her until she was finding herself partying with my friends at local gay guy...needless to say she figured that one out
but with JP i had to approach it differently, since hes the oldest, he could be a more "conservative" to the whole ordeal..
so we went to see a movie (my treat!) we were goin to see 'little miss sunshine', a very nice movie i might add i totally recommend it..and it felt just right to tell him that night, i just had to figure out the right timing (im always waiting for those 'right' things-helps me push back things till the last minute)...
so i was drinving us home and all of the sudden, old school madonna plays "border line"..my brother says its madonnas first hit, but u know us-family folk know better-'into the groove' was madonnas first hit, duh! (red flag)
well my bro remebers this song-he liked madonna, so he started singing out loud the lyrics to it..man, i dont even know the lyrics, i only know facts!..but it was nice to hear him sing..
so after the song i knew it..if madonna came to me and gave me the green light-it means its time!!!
but of course i took a long ass time, trying to soften the blow, explaing the meaning of life and where i stand...yeah, lot of bs...u know, to soften the blow...
-"you know jp, theres a reason why i dont date girls, and a reason why all the girls i know are my best friends and thats it...u can figure it out from there.."
-"yeah i know....but what about when u wanna have kids"
*sigh

but overall hes good with it, which im happy...now that my bros know..they can compare notes and try to find all those red flags they noticed when i was little!! yay...

and yeah, my brother still asked me through the night "how can i do the baby thing"...


wow


eric

Thursday, August 17, 2006

airports and offers to the air god

so the flight to MN was a smooth one..i like airport as i previously said and i also like connecting flights, mostly because they cram all they can from the city and state where the airport is, it just feels like you visited the entire place in just one or two hours..

there was tragedy though...i fell asleep on one of my flights and i was reading my "rise and fall of gay culture" and next thing i know i wake up with no book at all on my lap...WTF!!! i figured the air god wanted to take a read cuz no matter where i looked..that book was nowhere to be found, dammit it seems like i will never finish reading that book...

MN is still as gorgeous as ever..very quiet and cricket friendly, bev would shoot herself here...but its so nice and even though i like to consider myself a city boy..here, i can definetly say i can relax...its a blast to see family and friends again and ctaching up and seeing who got screwed up in life, makes me feel better about myself lol j/k i kid kid...

so yeah probably do a lot more heavy thinking here...lord knows i need it...

on the love front..meh, rather quiet now...i rather not get into it here (hate going on a in depth personal blurb when it involves people i know and the internet, its not cool and its not my moma raised me to be) but i do have to disagree with how this entire issue is being handled but hey! ill sit here and pet all my army of monkeys and have that thoughtful stare over the prairie..

*scratches monkeys head



wow



eric

Thursday, August 03, 2006

holding babies

im learning to hold the new baby..its what i do now that i have time to help round the house (baby wise) ..alex is a very quiet kid, doesnt complain that much...when he does, he just wants someone to hold him for a minute or two then he will get quiet,smile (ot at least i like to think so) and fall asleep for the next few hours..
so it got me thinking in a bigger context... we all essentially long for someone to 'hold us'..it doesnt necesarily mean in a romatnci way..but it could be a friendship that never fails, maybe someone that listens, an IM- so many ways to reach for someone that just needs you..
when i look at alex., it just puts everything in perspective..its like i have this pudgy baby (yes i fat one) just crying..hoping to get holded consoled maybe...

wow i got so much work to do with myself..

on a happier-less introspective note
heres chris (gee today is toddler day) attempting to eat yogourt.